Another new emotion on the rollercoaster of infertility

If someone had told me a year ago the range of emotions I would go through in the next year I would never have thought it possible.  I don’t think there are even words for some of the emotions that I have been through.  Most are subtle little changes in frustration or anger or sadness and therefore don’t have names.  “A little frustrated” does adequately describe the emotion that I am thinking of in my head when I say that.

I finally came out of my intense sadness phase of last week.  But now I am feeling an emotion that is new for our trip down infertility lane….indifference.  I have to say that I enjoy indifference so  far.  I really don’t feel anything good or bad or otherwise.  It is a nice little break from the frustration and sadness and anger that I normally feel .

Only 11 more days until we go to the doctor to find out our next step.  This is more agonizing that waiting for my wedding day to finally arrive!